State of Muddle!

It is a bright sunny day! The day starts with a frustration due to the 9 o clock classes which are the ones i really really hate to attend! But the class is one which i feel i can never miss even i don have any sleep! This is one of the few classes which makes me participate,think , feel happy about! It leads me to a state of muddle also as which path should i take in?Is it account planning/brand management/media..all i am sure is i do not want to end up in Market Research coz im well aware of the fact that i do suck in numbers!! Yeah, lots of mulling has been done abt my future career.. well, to speak about the present, things all seem to go fine! Ive learnt one thing for sure! Worrying is not going to take me anywhere!n confidence is what one needs!n confidence is what ppl like 2!!I wana live this beautiful life with splash of different colors...i would prefer it to be always yellow with high tone of red but cant really avoid it getting blue at times, then n there i have decided to bring on some purple n green :)... Most of the times i get abashed n it leaves me thinking that i am struck between the core values of a tam brahm and the cool ,upscale,trendy lifestyle!but im v happy that i have moved on to the centre of life where one grows up n start thinking in a matured way how certain things does not carry any value at all!ive started realizing and thinking which forms the essence of life! ive matured into a person who is not judgemental, living the life in its own course, accepting the fate, out of the coccoon,the comfort zone, getting the flash of the reality!!I so want a fresh breath of life where i am out of the virtual life and have everything in place in the physical life!! Still, whatever it is i have started enjoying the ups and downs of the roller coaster called LIFE- Leaping Internally Fumbling Externally !!